complete ruin

this filthy addiction has become a way of life i live and breath it spending at least 8 hrs a day touching my clitty  dressed like a cheap gutter whore ruined any chance i had of having a partner  no one would ever want me im a chronic masturbation addict itsmy sex life now and forever isolated gay faggot sacrificed everything to jerk my clitty it feels so good failing as a real man knowing how disgusting and pathetic i can never please a women   i start when i wake up cumming before i get out of bed i dont waist a drop i leave it sitting in my mouth so its all i can taste then the guilt shame and anxietykicks in i know it wont stop me nothing will so now  i embrace it now and keep going as its the only thing that makes me trully happy i cum at least twice between 10 and 12 by this stage its aching bad thhat makes me more horny its repetitive brain fucking weak minded loser doomed to this life till i die